So I talked a little bit about my mom in Willie’s leadership class today but it is really a hard time for me right now. My mom passed away from a horrible liver disease that took her away from us nearly three years ago. It was harder on me than anyone else because my mom was my everything. She raised my sister and I all on her own (my parents divorced when I was three) and my dad was absent and neglectful of child support and he was abusive when he was around. My mother was a musician and a writer and she encouraged me to go after any and all of my dreams. She never got to finish college and it was always her hope that my sister and I would. It was heartbreaking to graduate this last June without having her there with me to celebrate my achievement. I know it sounds lame but my mom really was one of my best friends. I don’t know how much I actually appreciated that fact while she was still around but it is something I have come to cherish now that she is gone. Everyone tries to tell me that it has been long enough that I should just get over it but it is a really difficult thing to accept that she is no longer in my life. The hardest days of the year for me I think will always be Mother’s Day, her birthday, and the day that she passed away, which just happens to be tomorrow. This is probably the only time of my life that I am truly sad and not really my self at all. I think that this is one of those losses that I will never get over; it is something that I will always carry with me.

The top picture is my mom at her senior prom and the bottom one is my mom and my nana at my high school graduation dinner.